Fragments at 3:20 AM
X(Twitter) thread - 2025
first time writing after several years, rather tying to be honest. why 'brain butter', you may ask? 3.20 am head rush has turned my brain into a slow processing ball of meat. that's the first thing that came to my mind. thoughts thinking, ideas ideating, mind hurting with ideas.
like butter. working, learning, reading and trying to push myself. am i enough
? is it enough? endless abyss of dissatisfaction. creeping from one goal to another, not making a deep happiness, only a happiness that is deeper. keep chasing i might say to myself. chasing or still,
void awaits. building the ai-bot for vehicle market, reading Elon Musk by Walter Isaacson, working while listening to Dark Academia Playlist on youtube. i want to revisit these memories. thats the sole reason for this memory bites. or else am i shy to say that oneday, when i am,
done chasing. no fucking way. or will i learn to be satisfied. what a dilemma. in 10, 20, 50 years i want to live these memories. dear future me, did i quench my thirst, or is it a pointless hope? i will keep chasing until that day comes. please do NOT. no one will see this.
no one will wait to read this. they have their own chasing to do. fly away my little birds. go chase the sun. i will read and smile at this stupidity one day. but keep the memories here. this is for you. keep dreaming.
Butter out!